When Trust Surpasses Understanding

Sometimes you read familiar words and see a brand new idea. "Trust in the Lord and lean not on your own understanding." (Proverbs 3:5)

I have searched for meaning for my suffering.

I have begged for understanding.

I have questions with no answers

When I stare pointless horror in the face.

I have grappled with the reality of what was,

Called senseless the shame imposed on me.

I have been given answers to the tormenting questions.

Sometimes.

I have had secrets revealed

That exposed and held to the light the why of my pain.

But not always.

I have come to understand that understanding my pain

And all that surrounds it

Is not always necessary for my healing.

My healing doesn’t depend on my own understanding.

It depends on trust,

Trust in my good Father who sees me.

He chooses to reveal, to expose evil and its intents to destroy

But sometimes He asks me to trust Him..

Trust Him to show me what I need to know

In order to live abundantly,

To trust Him to guide me to the truth that sets me free.